where i live now

the end came

(not unexpectedly)

we'd seen it coming for years

the dark circles under her eyes

her insistence on drinking only

wine coolers

the pig veins

folding out of her eyes

babies falling down the well

of her head

bruising the gasoline into her

skin

i lived in the fanciest

part of town then

glass airplanes would fly so low

you could see everything

the endless 

bottomlessness

glass apes 

would feed on her brokenness

their crystal skin

revealing monkey bones

covered in candles

like diamond stores

your plans of leaving 

without me never materialized

these lost things

idle threats

i was trapped in the car

with everyone

the drive 

to restoration hardware

seemed endless

we made so much money 

that year

we all bought slaves

why in gods name 

is this still 

happening 

to me

please. for god's sake

make it stop